Chapter 12: modes of my behaviour

Fuk yea i hav finished my 6th and last 3 hour exam this yr ~ i had 2 yesterday n 1 2day. its bn so goddam stressful during this study leave i've wachd... on average~ 4 hrs of Tv a day 4 stress release and brain cell regeneration. thats the reason 4 the long separation of an important part of myself [my blog]. i thnk i do believ in fate.. cuz no matter hw much i studied i wil stil gt bad marks~its my destiny.

this overdue chapter is gona b of the only ways i behave. theres no other. im a simple folk~

1. AUTOPILOT
Maybe on about 60% of the time.. this is my opinion of how everybody else acts~ no insight.. robots that dont think of anything other than surviving. Like.. if u say 'how are you?' i'll jst say 'fine'. this mode is on so much cuz of my laziness.. lyk i'd rather not argue my point [if it wont affect me] ~which is usually right~u heard me~ i dont decide on stuff widou the ability 2 write a 500 word essay on the reasoning if i had 2. anyway yea. if i say i thnk u shud paint the fence green bt u say blue.. i wont argue my point..i'd rather lose cuz its ur fence anyway..

2. DRIFT
u can usually c this if my face is blank and u ask me a question n theres jst no response. this is when i come up wi all that insightful crap~ i usually go slightly philosophical bt all my thots r unique. ON ONE CONDITION: relaxed mind. this is quite difficult 2 integrate with mode MISSION which was do well in exams but i had 2 in order 2 write stuff~hence the excessive drainage

3. COMMITING 2 THE MOMENT
i once heard that if u can enjoy the present second for what it is then that is really [thesaurus "good"]. it removes a lot of stress such as the thought of all the work i gotta do 2 become rich in the future or regretting stuff i did in the past. during the exam i had 2 hav tis mode on too or else i'd DRIFT onto something unacademically-related.

4. MISSION
easy explanation~ wont stop until mission completed. even if it kills me~ if i dont do it thers no point in living anyway.

5. LOGICAL
pretty much always on this mode~ well wen im not too lazy 2 thnk anyway. i pretty much make everything 2d.. lyk on a piece of paper so i can c evry single aspect of it.

6. DEMOLITION
rarely on.. bt when u truly rile me up- get me angry man thers no way ur escaping widou mentally dying~ i dontdo [physical as much cuz i lost weight so i hav low muscle mass~ im workin on it~ n also i'd rather mentally kill some1 than physically hurt sum1

i feel lyk thers 1 im missing bt ill stop @ 6~ lucky numbah