Chapter 3: into the subconcious of my mind; dreamsss
yes dreamsss... scientists say its a way 2 organise ur short term memories in2 long term ones.. bt hw does our brain decide which ones r transformd in2 long term ones? below r most of my dreams which hav bn convertd in2 long term... beginning with the earliest one:
-[recurring]i ws goin 2 the toilet. i sat down. startd 2 pee. i woke up.. bed wet.~~i never had dreams wher u walk thru warm water or wateva. i thot it was so unfair cuz i ws sittin on the frickin toilet!!
-i was in the garage nth was weird (as in dreams they sometimes r when ur in one place n somethn frm anotha place is there) then suddenly ther was a giant spider slightly smaller than our toyota camry wagon. it was about 2 eat me thn i woke up. no wait... i thnk it actually left me alone~tho i was still scared shitless~ and was actually goin 4 some1 else. someone who was trying 2 hurt me.
-falling (vry common amongst humans i hear.. n vry common in my dreams) n then i jump in my bed wen i wake. my jumps hav bn gradually getting more and more violent.
-my family- mum dad n me, lived in a zoo, in a "den" nxt 2 the hippo. one day my dad came home n went in2 the wrong "den" n the hippo ate him feet first..so he was screaming 4 his life cuz the monster was chewing him up slowly. this one made me cry so much n call my dad in the middle of da nite.
-my friend n i wer on a random island wachin dolphins swim by. one stoppd bside us n i said "i thnk it wants us 2 ride it." my friend said, "its dangerous." but i went anyway. i held on2 its fin n the dolphin said, "he's jst jealous cuz u'v found a new friend."... i was thnkin.. rite tis is usually what the bad guys say.. mayb sam was rite.. then the dolphin n i got on2 land. it walkd on its tail fins n we went shoppin. we saw sum1 i didnt lyk n i said "i dont lyk her" n the rest is pretty vague...
-we wer skiiin wi our relativs n then all of a sudden i heard a gunshot by the taxi down the hill. i skiied down n my grandad had bn shot. i woke up cryin silently n called my grandad...actually i didnt ~ my mum did n wat da hell was i supposd 2 say 2 him.. he actually died about a yr afta n i was the only one who didn cry @ his funeral when we saw the body... i had already done my cryin n witnessd his death once so i was able 2 say stuff 2 him that i regrettd not sayin b4 he died in the dream..
-it was snowin.. i was wi the digidestined (this was durin the digimon craze ok) then matt said "i cant believ it *tears fell down his cheeks*" then i sed "it'll b alright" even tho i had no idea wat had happend.
-the whole of my year (i thnk abt yr 5~ 2 yrs b4 intermediate sch) wer on our en suite bed.. it had enlarged a great deal n ther was a ramp on it n snow as well. we wer practicing snowboarding...
-mum n i stayin @ a hotel i made this random friend calld "josh soapy" altho @ tis point of my childhood i knew nobody calld josh or soapy. tho nw that i look bak on it he lookd a littl bit lyk 1 of my best friends then, calld nathan. tis ugly girl calld sharon (she was in our grp) had a crush on him n so she was bitchy 2 me n wud rush outa class n take him 2 a secret hiding place. = =.... finally nathan left i ws sad n happy cuz thn i left that grp n made better friends than sharon. then sharon left. hmm.. i thnk i askd her wher she was goin n she sed the same sch as nathan n i was lyk ...no way..~~anyway... his(soapy's) dad didn lyk me hangin out wid him or sumthn so i went 2 talk 2 him.. [he lookd a bit lyk austin powers or that salinski guy with the glasses in 'honey we shrunk ourselves'] n he was persuaded by my charms :D but then ther was this big earthquake. i ran outside. this big stone lion monster was tearin dwn the hotel. n so i ws lyk hope soapys ok n startd runnin around lookin 4 him. i met up wid soapy n i was lyk shud we fight it??n he said sumthn.. i dont recall.. bt we didn fight it n we ran away. as in dreams it always feels lyk ur runnin in water i told him 2 run ahead..then i heard sum1 screamin. it was my mum she was behind me n wearin high-heels bt thn she overtook me n i was wat!? yea.. thn i woke up.
-i ws in my room. it was night time...nth was distorted. exactly as it was. then snakes started fallin on me. i hid under the elec piano n watchd the snakes fallin down bside me. then snakes startd fallin frm the piano n i cudnt get out cuz of the damn chair. thn i woke up.
-in the garage again. this time the door was open n stuf was weird so i knew it was a dream. i had a gun. mum had a gun. we hid bhind random silver stuff i cant remember wat. mayb the car. we wer fightin hardout with each other. the guns shot out needles n i already had needles all over my body n my mum did too. thn she cornerd me n i was outa ammo. i decided i'd had enuf n didnt wana experience death so i closed my eyes, imagined myself lyin in bed n woke up.
-ther was a mission. 2 take this elderly man 2 this subway n 2 safety (vry distortd dream as thers no subway in nz it was kinda a cross btween my nz hse n usa in the movies. ther wer abt 6-9 grim reapers tryin 2 gt this man. it was vry excitin i had some sorta weapon n i was draggin the man around n killin the reapers. bt i didn hav much energy so i only killd abt 3~i remember i set one on fire in my garden. then somehow i ended up by the entrance of the subway n there wer 2 GRs down ther n i ws lyk rite this is the only way there so... ill distract them while u gt on the train. the man was too scared so i had 2 tak him wid me. n one of the GR ws lyk "let us hav him n u can liv" n i was lyk "no". thn they tried 2 kill me or sumthn~ i dont remember how bt i used the old man as a sheild n he died.. n i was lyk shit... so i closed my eyes, imagind myself in bed n woke up.
-we wer in science. n person "x" [someone i no] was bein bitchy or sumthn that made me real mad. so i startd beatin her up. thn she startd cryin n told on me. the teacher came n she kinda told me off vaguely so "x" was pissed off so i started laughin. o and i made up a word in this dream. the teacher askd me y i was beating x up so i thot 'ok.. i hav 2 b polite' so i made up a polite word for "spoilt": "misbreghlt"~ originating from mis-brought-up.
-mum n me shoppin one day with the nex door neighbour[the mother n the big bro] [i dont really lyk that family altho i dont actually kno them.. mayb the idea of them i dont lyk.. duno] n they wer walkin bhind me dissin the way i walk cuz i was limping n then i went up real close 2 the mum suddenly (5cm btween our faces) n i put a finger 1cm away frm her face n said "watch it. im warnin u" in a serious tone. then they continued laughin when i walkd off so i ran bak n startd beatin them up! they startd runnin away n i chased them all around the mall occassionally gettin the chance 2 hit them. my mum turnd in2 1 of her friends that i didnt lyk n calld the cops. it was the most interestin mall. i thnk it was kinda lyk one i saw in america with bridges n lifts n escalators. it had kinda a gold-ish theme color goin on n the lifts wer silver. very pretty. n i saw them runnin around the mall n i was lyk haha scared littl shits. n then 2 police helicopters arrivd. 1 ws 4 me n the otha was 4 this criminal. this officer came out of da lift n i ws thinkin 2 myself "hmm... thers a big chance that this was a dream... but i hope nt cuz im proud of wat i'v done. i'm tired of tis stupid runnin.. i'll jst let them continu 2 run. i mean.. goin 2 prison is beta than chasin these wimps." so i went up 2 the officer n told him i ws the one that had bn beatin 2 ppl up. so he was lyk rite.. if u wud come wid me please. n we went in2 the lift. in the lift he ws lyk "green tea [the code name of the helicopter].. green tea come in. i'v got our offender comin up 2 the roof with me" n thn the walkie talkie sed "righteho" n he turnd it off.
n i askd him: "isit ok 2 beat someone up 4 verbal abuse?"
officer: "abuse? uhh yea."
"ahemm.. no verbal abuse."
"herbal?"
"no. verbal!"
"err.. we'll look in2 dat @ the station"
we arrivd on the roof n ther was this huge yellow trampoline there n a helicopter[green tea i assumed] hoverin nearby n this random heli hoverin in the distance. there wer 2 thick ropes dangling frm it. the officer jumped on da trampoline n grabbd on2 one rope. i gt on the trampoline. it was sooo fun cuz it was extremely bouncy. i grabbd on2 the rope n the officer signalld 4 us 2 leav n we flew abov all the tall buildings of the city with the gentle night breeze.. ahhh blisss... thn i woke.
thats all i can remember... thats plenty of an insight in2 my mind.
but recently all the dreams i can remember afta i woke up(bt not now) hav all bn slightly unpleasant.. but some wer jst normal n i wud try n wake myself up (the way i always do) n i woudnt wake up... wel i thought i woke up bt i woke up in2 a diff dream.. one that i thot was real.
i guess that's wat happens when u try 2 take control of evry part of ur mind. it wont let u.
yessss no mor exams til nx yr wooohoo! im freeee...
