Chapter 11: misunderstood.

yea..its quite hard emotionally to get by as me.. but im strong but here's why..

1 thing evry1 always gets wrong~ wen i appear bitchy im being sarcastic.. sometimes jst 2 test hw ppl wil react~ if u actually cared 2 look @ my expression/eyes (afterward/during) u can actually c im kidding..i'v never in my life [apart frm primary sch] been mean 2 any1 [unless u'v established that u dont lyk me~ in which case ill actually pay no attention 2 u~ which isnt the worst thing i cud do: just dont expect any favours from me!!]

THEN~ i hav different priorites than other ppl. 4 me and 4 others... so lyk when i do sumthn that i thnk is really nice u'll jst thnk its average. when i do sumthn average/don't do sumthn. then u find it offensiv ..which is annoying.

eg. scenario A: u'v bought me a $50 book voucher 4 my bday.. i will b UNHAPPY! u hav spent soo much on a bloody pointless gift.
a.) i dont like reading, b.)ur out 50 big ones. .. no. i wud rather u spend a little mor thought and a little less money
BECAUSE: money is veryveryvery important to me. i just cant deal wi sum1 wasting their money on stupid things.
ppl lyk me r quite rare actually.. but if u meet sum1 lyk me who likes books don't by them a $50 book voucher. track down their favourite book and get it in a special edition.. u no.. sumthn lyk that..if u actually wana spend a lot.. or lyk if the 1st time we met we ate peanuts.. buy me a pack of peanuts..
scenario B: ur sitting next 2 me.. [lucky u!] i wud lyk u 2 pass me the.. holepunch. and i say "can u pass me the holepunch?" and u stare @ me blankly. I KNOW ur waiting 4 me 2 say please! but wat a fkin stupid thing 2 waste time wi! and if ur too fkin bitchy 2 pass it 2 me widou the measely WORD pleeease then u dont deserv it anyway! if u wud jst pass it 2 me.. i will say THANK YOU. this is much mor meaningful as i mean it~ u deserv it 4 passing it 2 me, and im thankful.
if i say please or suck up in any way when its not necessary [ie ur not at a higher rank than me + i feel we can be casual 2getha + ur nt one of those sweet ppl~nice evry single moment OR im starting 2 dislyk u.. and need one more reason 2 not lyk u] i die a little bit inside! if u knew it killd me a bit evry time i suck up 2 u.. and u still want me 2.. then ur obviously not a very nice person..y wud u kill my dignity? hmm?? dont make me say sumthn its humiliating.

so wat isss important 2 me?
not much really.. i can probably sum it up in 3 points.:

1. effort + depth of thought
2. no one 2 EXPECT anything frm me.. ill do it if i will~ im stubborn so whining wont help~ some bribes do tho
3. dont look down on me in front of my face~ ull hav hell 2 pay

i recycle gifts i dont wana keep shhh...

the optometrist.

so.. went 2 the optometrists 2day..
got me eyes chekd
and i'v derived that the problems were certainly not caused by my best bud TV no..
in fact when i think abt it.. problems began Nov. last yr.. pretty much round the time of my 1st NCEA exams.
the facts rnt so simple tho..
with scarring on my left eye [found by my opthalmologist dad] vision of my left eye was blurred 4 short distance crap.
and i had 2 liv life evryday wi ppl goin omg.. y is ur eye red??
they ask this lyk millions of milions of times so that even wen a new person asks i hav 2 restrain myself from leaping @ them. yes thats how much they care 2 probe into my personal health. even when i lost a game ppl wud think i was crying.. wel hello is it possible 4 only my left eye 2 b crying??

so ther i was.. studying ALL DAY thinking i had perfectly manageable vision when o no.. my right eye was working extra hard to compensate 4 my inadequate left eye
so month after month, my right eye's health depreciated.until now..
the problem was found.. my right eye with 6/24 vision [pretty sucky]
so now i need 2 put a contact lens in my right eye...
lyk a contact monocle?

i suppose its 4 the best..
i can jst get a set.. and if 1 wears out i dont hav 2 buy a new one..
hell.. i can c fine widou glasses.. wen u add the 2 eyes 2getha its all gud..
and if monocles come bak into fashion im gud 2 go..

JOKE OF THE DAY

BY ME
-- made up the best joke..well mayb nt the best bt its good stuff.. here goes

哪一種動物聽不到又看不到???


龍蝦!!
呵呵呵呵
別擔心...是冷笑話

The Poo List

something to listen 2 while u read this post

I thought this deservd mention on my blog and i wanted a copy to refer bak 2 on rainy days.. however horrific it may be, it should b passed on & on til 4evr and a day:~

GHOST POO : You know you've pooed. There is poo on the toilet paper but nonein the toilet.
TEFLON COATED POO : Comes out so slick, clean and easy that you don't even feel it. No trace of poo on the toilet paper, you have to look in the toilet to besure you did it.
GOOEY POO : This has the consistency of hot tar. You wipe 12 time and you stilldon't come clean. You end up putting toilet paper in your underpants so youdon't stain them. This poo leaves permanent skid marks in the toilet.
SECOND THOUGHT POO : You're all done wiping and about to stand up when you realise it,you've got some more.
POP A VEIN VEIN IN YOUR FOREHEAD POO : This is the kind of poo that killed Elvis. It doesn't want to comeout until you're all sweaty, trembling, and purple from straing so hard.
WEIGHT WATCHERS POO : You poo so much that you loose several kilograms.
RIGHT NOW POO : You better be within 30 seconds of a toilet. You burn rubbergetting there. Usually, it has its head out before tou get your pants down.
KING KONG POO : This one is so big that you know it won't go down the tiolet unlessyou break it into smaller chunks. A wire coat hanger works well. This kindof poo usually happens at someone elses house.
CORK POO : ( Also known as a floater.) Even after the third flush, it's still floating in the bowel.My god. How do I get rid of it ??
WET CHEEKS POO : This poo hits the water sideways and makes a big splash that getsyou all wet.
WISH POO : You sit there all cramped up for a few minutes, but no poo.
CEMENT BLOCK POO : You wish that you'd gotten a spinal block before you pooed.
SNAKE POO : This poo is fairly soft, about as thick as your thumb, and at leastthree feet long.
MEXICAN FOOD POO : ( Also called the screamer.) You know it's okay to eat again when your bum stops burning.
BEER DRUNK AND MEAT PIE POO : This happens the day after the night before. Normally yourpoos don't smell too bad, but this one is BAD !!. Usually thishappens at someone elses house and there is someone standing outsidethe door waiting to use the bathroom.

So print out a million copies and paste them on the doors of public toilet cubicles. Before long the world shall b filld wi laughter on the can

we're past the hump

wel its lyk past the middle point of the yr and i hav so much 2 do!!
this yr has gone so sloooow.. yet i havnt done much..
week 2's almost finishd and we hav internal due in wk 4, mock exams wk 7.. and i hav 2 do 10 hours piano lesson observation b4 i can start teachin!
then i hav the acct internal starting day aftr tmr.. but thatll b peasy just really boring..
then thers my japanese convo which i hav2 memorise [which is not that easy cuz u hav 2 think of all the fkin possibilities!] and call the weird correspondence teacher..
i oso hav 2 read 3 mor books and write reviews on them.. zzzzzzzz...
hate reading.. well. dont really hate it~ jst too lazy..
and 2 top all o' tat off. i hav a pimple in the middle of my forehead..
i hav 2 deal wi all tis crap most of which i dont giv a shit abt except they wil affect the crap i do care about.. which is so stupid cuz i care abt absolutely NOTHING save 3 things

1. getting a car wi flippy headlights blak/white
2. buildin a business and bcome filthy stinkin rich
3. doin the least amount of work possible 2 get all this

o rite and i also wana move out and rent a flat.. make it on my own.. widou anyone tellin me wat 2 do.. and if my business bcomes influential enuf.. ill take over the world and make it a better place cuz all those otha idiots jst dont got the brains 2 do it

my top 10 music chart JULY 2006

these things outdate faster than flares..bt here r some cochlea tingling tracks... the order may b a little muddled bt its about rite..

10. our song- goodnight nurse
9. apathetic way to be- relient k
8. white trash- steriogram
7. pump it- black eyed peas
6. lights and sounds- yellowcard
5. cheer up- reel big fish
4. fat lip- sum 41
3. i write sins not tragedies- panic! at the disco
2. dance dance- fall out boy
1. make damn sure- taking back sunday

Chapter 10: cartoon phases

o man its bn a while since i bought sumthn..other than food.. forgot how good it felt! we actually set out 2 buy bday presents but then ther was a "nothing over 30" sale @ Shanton so we put that on hold.. i wasnt actually quite sure @the time bt im quite proud of my purchase now..$24.95 n its got a strap inside so i can swap it 2 a long strap if i feel lyk it!


but i thot its about time i had anotha chapter.. or im neva gona finish this..
cartoons.. ill bet ther isnt a person in the world who has never lykd cartoons..wel except 4 the ppl who cant afford TVs.. my condolences2 u guys..bt 4 me i had a few actual obsessions

1. SAILOR MOON

i used 2 get up early every morn 2 wach it .. wen i 1st moved 2 the motel in chch.. i think it probably helped me learn english.. and well lets not 4get fashion sense..

i lykd the pink one.. but then after a while i thot the brown one wit the green skirt was prettier..

2. POKEMON

O Man this was not a small obsession.. i had the game.. the small figures.. the book..favourites.. the CD.. the song lyrics in my head..man they wer awesome.. my favourite was arcanine..the fastest one.. n it was lyk a huge ass dog thing..#59.. it was perfect.. 5/9.. my birthday.. and that is the origin of my fav. number.

3. DIGIMON

this was lyk... during the pokemon phase.. and some of my frends had a problem wi dat.. cuz they both end wi "mon" so its lyk the same.. except totally different! in digimon u get one buddy that can talk.. in pokemon.. u can hav as many as u want bt they can only say their names.. which is cute bt boring..my fav.. gatomon..

a thot frm the pool of intelligence that is mine.

if u wer sittin on the toilet all day.. n u had a tank of water bside u.. hw much wud u hav 2 drink continuously b4 u cud pee continuously?

i was thnkin of this cuz im sick [not my mind~my health[and agen nt my mental health]].. n wen ur sick i dont think u can hold ur water in vry well.. cuz i was thirsty all day n i jst kept drinkin bt lyk i had 2 pee every ad break!

on another note i baked peanut butter cookis!
it was 4 ames' send-off..but i missd it cuz i was sick!
i oso misd a dinner ~bt tat was jst wi fam frends.. bt my frend was ther 2..
n misd my frends bday as well..
bt its quite cold here widou a fever..